This piece is about indecision and the way that not knowing what can leads to a total brain fog.
It's a feeling that's part frustration, part fear, part 'why isn't this easier' flavoured despair and once you're in it, it feels like you'll never be able to make a confident decision ever again.
I'm sure I felt this in my youth (lol) but as a mother it's quite crippling. Having total dominion over a small human in which every single move / decision you make could lead to either a happy baby sleeping peacefully or a total monster clawing at your boobs.
There's only so many good decisions I can make in one day.